had a Malacca trip with ECA YAM yesterday.wow.!
awesome trip.!
*although the hot weather was killing all of us.
met them up at 2 pm.
we had a "angel act" during the trip.
when i know who i want to take care,
i was like: har? how should i take care of this person?
*LOL
the first journey,
Janice, Glen and me have the same car.
*lol
on the way,
the car has been shaking.
Janice shown me by her phone: "we are sitting on Ogawa".
when i get her mean,
*lol
we both laughed till like crazy.
the driver ( i forgot what his name @@) and Glen kept looking on us,
and guess what's wrong with us.
i had took a nap for few ten minutes.
when i woke up,
i saw Glen is capturing janice's sleeping look.
*lol
have him captured me?
never mind.
because my hair was covered my face when i sleeping.
xD
on the half way,
because our car had some problem,
i changed to Jenn's car.
some feeling come over me during sitting in Jenn's car.
*write after i reported our schedule. =D
when i reached there,
Malacca is a nice-view-place.!
*hengdaijimui, next time we plan to there ok? =)
i thought i could go Malacca to enjoy the foods.
so i missed my lunch.
but, sad case,
all there food are so-call "toxic food".
i have severe dieting because of my face.
the whole day i only had a breakfast, snake food and a hotdog at Malacca.
i missed out chicken ball rice, rendang chicken rice and SATAY.!
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those satay look delicious.
OMG
i only could watched them enjoy the foods.
irritated me.!
although i couldn't eat,
but i enjoyed to serve them.
hahaha~
we went back at 12 something.
i sat Jacob's bro's car.
on the way,
Keanu and Darren kept made fun.!
they are really fun.
especially Darren's imitated.
*lolsss
and i had a good talked with mei ling.
She taught me a lots.
Thanks God sent such a good angel to me.
i received a lot from her.
regarding the "angel act".
*haaa
what i did to the people i took care?
i only bought a bunch of fruit to her. xD
i'd no idea what should i do...
i have been looking for way to take care of her,
but this person is so close with me,
i couldn't care her obviously and goof my identity.
i was kept thinking what can i do for her.....
at last , *haha, i only bought a brunch of fruit.
who was the person i took care??
*dang dang* my shepherd- Jenn.
*lolsss~
Jenn,
don't complain i merely bought a brunch of fruit to you.
do you know what my angel do to me??
NOTHING. *OMG
she only been my fan FOR WHILE when i'm sweating.
she is Alice Yong. xDD
i reached home at 2 something,
EXHAUSTED.!
and hungry some more. ><
i had called my dad reserve or buy some food for me.
and i told him i freaking hungry.
but he didn't do that.
*am i his daughter?
*actually i already know he wont reserve or buy any food for me, but i still called him, am i foolish? ya.! i think so.
ok, return to the part while i sitting in Jenn's car.
其实, 我知道你们对我的要求.
虽然你们都没有说出口.
从我懂事以来,
我家人很少真正的去照顾我.
所以无可否认, 我的确很自由.
我自由到的程度,
我去朋友家过夜两天他们才发觉到我的不存在.
即使我离家,
他们都不会自动打电话给我.
在家人里面,
谁对我最约束呢?
姑姑.
她对我的感情生活很敏感.
她总是害怕我现在会谈恋爱.
曾经因为我只是和男同学在一起等父母,
她就找完我所有朋友们的电话号码,
一个一个去找去问我是不是谈恋爱.
其实, 虽然我很生气她这样的举动.
她的方法很不成熟.
但是, 有谁知道其实我很感动.
因为她爱我, 她关心我啊~
每次和朋友出夜街,
他们的家长都会催他们回家,
甚至担心他们.
*其实我很羡慕.
前天,
和朋友出去吃东西,
10 点多打给父母,
我妈说: 半个小时就来.
一个小时过了,
我再打, 我爸说:
"aiya, 我现在在睡觉, 不要吵我, 自己叫朋友载你回, 不然不用回."
就这样,
讲完就挂我的电话,
我想说没有人可以载我回的时间都没有.
其实, 我 suppose 应该习惯成自然.
因为不是第一次了.
可是, 当时真的很想就在马路旁大哭.
一直在那边想,
"我到底是不是我爸爸的女儿?"
"他有当过我是他的女儿吗?"
我知道,
我知道我爸爸做工很累.
他真的很累,
每天只能睡最多4个小时吧.
可是, 为什么会对我说那些不负责任的话?
这几天有一个问题很想问,
"他到底有没有当我是她的女儿?"
如果某天我因为他这样的对待,
而发生了不愉快的事情,
他会伤心自责吗?
是要那样他才注意到我这个女儿吗?
*每次出门, 我都会为我的安全祷告.
昨天,
从我 meet 他们的那一刻起,
我的电话就没有从我手上离开过,
直到第二段路程我坐 jenn 的车.
我知道,
我就算关上了静音.
那一个震动的声音还是会让人知道我的信息来了.
jemima开口说: "哇~fung ming你很忙哦, msg又来了".
这一句话过后,
我就停了.
我知道我其实根本不应该有这样的举动.
即使我多闷,
因为这次的 trip 是 fellowship.
我知道我这样的举动很没有礼貌.
因为很不尊重.
ECA 是有礼貌精神的.
我是他们的一份子,
当然我也要遵守"家规".
其实我很感动,
*哈哈
因为他们对我有要求.
每次和我信息的人遇到家人或吃饭时间,
都会和我说:" sry, parent here/ eating now, msg you later."
我都会想说,
"为什么这样乖?"
现在, 我可以体会.
我可以改掉这种习惯.
因为, 我不是为信息而活.
也许那个路程真的太闷了吧.
每次遇到路程时间比较长的时候,
就很习惯性地去按电话.
其实我事先已经告诉和我信息的人.
我会随时停止手中的信息.
jenn每次都说:
"我们 ECA 永远都是一家人."
AMEN.!!
前几天我突然和妈咪说:
"my dear, 我爱你."
hahahahaahaha~ XD
但是她没有什么反应~ ==
如果不联络是唯一一个办法来维持我们的友谊,
那我真的不会在联络你了.
我真的在乎你这位朋友,
我都主动找你聊天还是怎样,
你给的回报都是: 不开心收场.
为了很小件的事情凶我.
对不起.
我只能说对不起.
我知道对不起也许不会换到你的原谅.
因为从某件事情起,
你开始就不喜欢我,
甚至反感?
不要说我为了谁谁谁而忽略掉你.
我们的友情,
是被你破坏的.
