26-4-11

happy that i know you care me.
alright,
you're my good friend forever ya.!
Mr.Blue =)


God blessed,
the sixth night,
totally no more you in my dream.
i had a dream.
A dream totally without you.!


hmm..
I'm thinking to change my name,
change to the Christian name which Uncle David gave me,
it's a nice and meaningful name.
friends, give some idea?


don't stop to pray for my face.
I needs your pray.


I miss Girls.
I miss Beeeeee!
I miss Even.
I miss Esther.
I miss Xiao Xiao.
I miss Mr.Blue.
I miss Shi di.
and,
I miss Mr.SV

23-4-11

many people were said: fung ming was missing.

*lol

i'm still here larr...

hmm...

my recent life is quite busy.

teach my 2 little bros.

help my mum.

it's took nearly half a day.

night,

play guitar.

plan my future.

take care of my bros.

and sleep.

*haha, sounds like boring, but actually i enjoy this life.

hmm...

yesterday was Good Friday.

I'm glad i did not miss it.

I feel sorry and guilty.

...

hard to express that ashamed.

I just weeps.

sorry of it.

the guilt still in my mind.

i'm expecting for tomorrow.

Easter day.

first time as a Christian to celebrate it.

=)

那一年.梦想

facebook真是个好玩意儿
昨天, 无意间 add 了两个小学的朋友
是舞蹈学会的朋友.


那个小学的六年,
我都为学校奉献了不少.
回忆满满.!


幼儿园时代,
妈妈就认为,
女孩子家应该学跳舞.
毕竟每个家长们都希望自己的孩子在舞台上有一番作为.


可能在幼儿园的时候,
舞蹈基础打得稳吧~
小学一年级的面试,
我就升级进了校对.



不是我夸大其词,
一, 二,三年级的时候,
教练都很看好我.
给的角色都不轻.
所站的位置,
不是最前面,
就是在中间.



可能越大就越懒惰吧.~
四年级开始,
就开始不专心.
又跌班,
妈妈希望我可以专心在学业上,
所以, 退出了这个学会半年.



半年以后,
舞蹈学会的老师召我重返这个舞台.
更何况,
在家里很闲啦~
要求妈妈给我练回舞.



重返这个原本的世界,
都以为不难习惯.
但是,
身体的关节开始硬了.
一字马, 走型了.



我的阶级被老师降了级.
都不显眼.
练舞的时候都会被骂.
久而久之,
不被重用了.



学校的舞蹈学会,
有分3种.
舞蹈, 韵律操, 流行歌舞.



emm~
所谓的舞蹈,
其实也是最重要的啦~
它是很有角色性或戏剧性的舞蹈.
为了争取最主要的角色,
老师都会透过筛选来判定.
所以,
这是最受欢迎.



韵律操呢,
就是 Gymnastic 啦~
有呼拉圈, 健身球, 跳绳, 彩带...
很费体力的一种舞蹈.
要求舞出最美的姿态.
所以, warm up 不简单.
拉筋超痛.!



最后一个,
很轻松的,
只是好像 mv 那样跳就行了.



由于时间,
还有老师针对的关系.
(*当时的我是这样觉得啦~)
最后一年,
我只参加韵律操.
之前我都"一身两职"
最重要的那两种.



我还记得最后一年,
我拿彩带的角色.
因为台上出了糗.
我的性格就是,
摆整体 post 的时候,
我在台上哈哈大笑.
结果一下台,
就被老师捉到一旁训了一顿.




最后一次的校外表演,
应该是在绿野仙踪吧~
很记得那一个晚上,
因为是最后一次.



上了中学,
因为不想再给人家觉得"娇"的感觉,
就放弃了舞蹈.
再小学都被说学舞蹈是娇婆嘛~



看了那两个朋友的照片,
原来她们还在为舞蹈战争.
很值得鼓励.



我想念一群舞伴一起跳舞.
为比赛而地狱似的练习.
比赛的前一个星期都必须留下来练舞.
用上课时间练舞.
用假日时间练舞.
练完一次又一次,
教练也不给喝水.



为比赛而紧张.
一大班舞者到处表演.
一起化装.
一起换装.
一起绑头发.
一起彩排.



找回舞蹈的热诚.
很想轰轰烈烈地在台上干出一番成绩.



我想念家人来观看的感觉,
很久很久,
无论什么表演,
他们都不会出现在观众席.



想念舞蹈的美态,
都叙说着一个故事.
每一个姿势,
不是一朝一夕的~
都是被黑青和骨折而成长的.



舞蹈是有成就感的一种生命,
它呈现最真实的杰出品.



我想,
我又爱上了舞蹈.

说不乱想,
其实很难,
因为我在意.

LORD

i miss my "home".
i miss the lively, lovely, youthful and holy "home".

i miss my shepherd.
have a long time didn't really chat with her.
here to congrats her,
because she graduated from college.

i miss my "brothers and sisters",
the worship time with them.

i love to pray.
and i'm addicted to pray.

i pray for those i don't like.
i pray for those i hate.

that's not so-call pretending.
because Bible teaching,
LOVE YOUR NEIGHBOR AS YOURSELF.

i want to curse foul language, when i HATE.
i really WANT TO.!!!
but, i pray instead of it.
*fung ming, stay calm.

a song . a memory .

can you see the "graffiti" upon my hand?
my dear EVEN wrote 1. =)

ok,
back to the topic.


today,
when i'm playing facebook,
i saw a singer's post.
i've no idea why i would click in.
i just too bored and check the singer's comment.
and saw a song lyric.
that's a song with a great memories, for me.
from that moment,
i'm crazy to listen the song, until now.


those pictures just like a slideshow,
appear in my mind.


allow me to say that i miss the scene.?
*lolsss.


time often flies so quickly.
unconsciously, already....
i want to say out loud,
i miss the past.
those all were never ever could come back again,
i knew, though.


well,
take it as, growth of memories. =)

<最珍贵的角落>

当你被花朵包围尽情欢欣
我带春风使你舞其中
当你正走在忐忑路
我会伴你在左右

一起向蓝天欢呼向白云招手
我们要一起笑一起哭
千万人中有个人懂我
你有最珍贵的角落




这首歌有三个很美好的回忆
1) '10 MPH school camp (营歌)
*第一次听
2) 用钢琴弹给我亲爱的师弟听
*学了一个星期
3) '11 April fool
MPH homeschooling最后一天





我还以为
我会哭得稀里哗啦
还好
没有那么夸张
看到你们这样
其实心很痛




心情到现在还没有平伏
一来我想到你们哭到这样
真的很难形容那一种痛
二来,
我真的很想念你们.!





好吧,
我该交代一下为什么我会要转校.
1) 家庭和学校给的压力 (不方便说)
2) 我希望有一个真正学习到的"学校"
3) 不希望继续地浪费钱和时间
我真的很舍不得你们
但是, 转校对我来说是一种释放.
这些年扛着的压力,
我可以放下来了.
现在的心情好像,
关在鸟笼的小鸟终于自由了.




昨天最后一次的chapel,
我还以为可以来一些不同点的.
原来全程只有我和 kelly在 high~
打tambourine打到手起泡和黑青.
第一次在学校的chapel敬拜到这样 high~
这是必须的嘛.
觉得我癫的我不怪你们.
我知道自己在做什么. xD




之前还以为,
我只会舍不得一些 buddies.
原来,
还有我亲爱的 girl class.
可能是全班最老的关系吧.
还是家里是老大的关系?
我很享受照顾你们的感觉.
我很喜欢教你们做功课.
也很喜欢带领你们玩游戏.
做小老师.
还有,
现在我才发现,
"外号"也可以增加感情.
只要是不难听的外号.
来,
我一个一个为你们介绍我美丽的女孩们.


Girl Class
T. Elaira (小小)<<< teacher, you pattern. xD
外号来源: 因为她很小只嘛~ xD
girl class 的 supervisor~
才大我一年.

小小,
your messages is FUNNY.!
"err...scary..."
"err...problem..."
"err...why you looked at me like that...?"
"oh...i'm wrong...xD"
haha~
do not keep mentioned that i'm fierce larrr~
i'm such a lovely and friendly... =D



Yan Ying (癫癫)
外号来源:最天马行空无厘头的.

癫癫,
the picture you drew for me was sooooooo perverted...
lolss~
i love your foolish and funnier imaginary.
you bring to this class the most interesting atmosphere.
continue to amuse them up.!
maybe you could take my position in this class.
be a LEADER. =)


simbee (bobo)
外号来源: 她的脸很圆.

yea.!
she is the one who always intimate with me.
last chapel,
she played the piano with me <最珍贵的角落>.
haha~
i already told you what i want to tell you by msg.
*sigh~


Even (bob bob)
外号来源: 她很喜欢 spongeBOB. xD

she also is the one who always intimate with me.
i love the "booklet" that you gave me.
TOUCHED and WARMED.
we have a lots of memories.
continue to create our memory of outside the campus.
haha~ xD
heart pain that you cried till the eye go swollen.
but still pretty larrr~ =DD


Kelly (圆圆)
外号来源: 她的脸也是很圆.

not that really get to know you.
a ballet dancer,
i hope i can see your ballet.
and,
CONGRATZ.!
you are wise because you choose to believe in CHRIST.
wow.!


Sou Mun (聪聪)<<< Mr.bean (with 长长)
外号来源: 她很聪明.

forget to say,
nice to meet you.
haha~
you came to this school already 3 months.
and, you choose to leave at last.
( left with me...)
this 2 days only started to get to know you.
you are FRIENDLY.!
now i only aware.!
is it too late? haha~
by the way,
you transfer back to your former school.
your actual life...
hope you won't forget this GIRL CLASS.
keep in touch with them and ME =D


Liwen (长长)
外号来源: 她长. xD

i loved your smile and voice.
haha~
you are such a crazy, now i know.
your homemade pastry was tasty.!
that could warm us. =D


Yee Shuan (三三)
外号来源: 因为这个小瓜很三八. xD

three three,
i'll not forget you are the one of my lovely members at '10 school camp.
haha~ still remember our dance?
"bad romance"
xD
heartpain that heard you cried till sleep.
its make you having nightmare.
be relaxxxxx~
i promise you i'll date you girls out. =)
sayang sayang =D
and also CONGRATZ to you,
finally, believe in Christ.
stay brave to transform your family.!
good challenge my dear~


sharon (八八)
外号来源: 和三三同组 xD

what a cute girl you are?
you looks so easy to bully~ xD
haha~ never mind...
i know Javen can protect you. xD


Eng Wei (捏捏)
外号来源: 很好捏.

you are new to this school for 3 months.
also, this 2 days only started to get to know you.
CRAZY.!
you are such funny and crazy.
yo.!
shoulda known you earlier.
i can imagine this girl class will be different of interesting,
when you melted with them.


christina (矮矮)
外号来源: 她矮. xD

you gave me the teeth mark still here.
painful when you bite me.!
were you trying to eat my hand? LOLss...
short short,
you are a girl needs to be looked after.
*Girls, help me take care of this girls ok.?


dear Girl class,
remember what i told.
1) be automatically to know new student, show your lovely and welcome them to this class.
2) take care of your neighbor.
3) show Girl Power.! =D
4) study hard ya.! =)
I'll miss you all.!
keep in touch with me and Sou Mun.


HengDaiJiMui.
Estherrrrr,
first time ever i saw you...
actually i didn't even know.
after someone told me,
and i saw you leave out the class, and not going to upstair.
my tears...
i want to tell them you already walked out this class.
but, hard to open my mouth.
the tears killing my heart and i just kept point the door.
1 mins after,
i calm down,
i pointed the door and told them, esther at outside.
the moment was touched me.
because i never see...
esther, i never think that i have such a seat in your heart.
but, since yesterday.
i love you, my sis. =)




Steven Lim (shi di)
finally, you gave me a hug.
haha~



Derek,
i'm waiting to see you at ECA =)



CC,
i forget to give you a hug hor?
haha~
*later someone kill me...



Friends.
Lawrence,
smileeee when playing drum.
lolsss, you looked so serious.
that can make people couldn't enjoy in it.! xD


Marcus,
date me out when you free lar~
don't so miss me~ xDD




eh,
i haven't introduce my "nickname".
my nickname is 满满
外号来源: 因为身材苗条, "他们"觉得我的上半部很丰满.
haha~
i love this name so much wor.
because i also like a song name 满满.
sounds nice also.
but do not to think of the pervert things larrr~
hee =D





everybody take care and study hard.!
mwah~